College pressure

To be really honest, I don't look forward to college at all (even though I already signed up today).

First of all, I am aware that college isn't like any normal school. In school, decisions were made but in college, you are making the decisions...and I am not good at making decisions. All my life, decisions were made for me but now that I have the power to make my own decisions, I just don't know what to do. Sometimes, I just want my parents to force me into a college so I don't need to think whether which college should I go and what course should I take.

Plus, there is this money problem. College isn't cheap. Unless, you know, you go to some small colleges...but for good quality education, you gotta pay the price. As an average student, I don't have access to any amazing scholarships or financial aids so that means, I have to pay the full price. That bugged me a lot. If my parents spend so much money, and I don't do well, that's a waste isn't it?

Form 6 was one of alternative. It saves me money and I could use that money to actually buy a car. Although the duration is 2 years, I am really okay with that. I still don't know which field I want, so spending two years isn't a bad idea.

So why did signed up for college? Now that I think about it, I don't know why either. I think it's because I want to go overseas...and also to experience college life. Looks like the more I talk about it, the more confused I am.

Anyhow, I will take college as a challenge. In order to not waste my parents' money, I shall study hard. Excel and get financial aid. Pursue a degree overseas. Come back and earn money. Repay whatever I owe.

But most of all, have fun :)