Seriously, once you turned sixteen, life is so much tougher.
Yes, I am sixteen years old and I'm so not happy about it. I totally understand why Taylor Swift has a song called Fifteen instead of what all people always said 'Sweet Sixteen'. Believe me, sixteen ain't so sweet. I do not understand why they called it Sweet Sixteen. WHY?!
Once I turned sixteen, I started having major insomnia and depression. Locking myself in the bathroom seems like a common thing. Crying also seems like a common thing now. It felt like everything just come to me like one shot and I've to be responsible for it, I've to take care of it and I've to try and solve it. Well, I'm not ready for it yet. I am used to a carefree life - a life that I don't have to care about anything. All I do is just to enjoy my life and stay out of trouble. Now, I have to worry about the things I do, the path I take and even the words I say.
Is this the time where I need to make so much mistake in life? Is this the time for me to feel what responsibility feels like? Is this the time for me to wake up from my carefree life and start taking my life seriously? It might be. I guess it should be. I don't know what should I do anymore.
Everything I do now seems so complicated.
I need time.
I need time to find myself.
To find what sweet sixteen meant to me.
Yes, I am sixteen years old and I'm so not happy about it. I totally understand why Taylor Swift has a song called Fifteen instead of what all people always said 'Sweet Sixteen'. Believe me, sixteen ain't so sweet. I do not understand why they called it Sweet Sixteen. WHY?!
Once I turned sixteen, I started having major insomnia and depression. Locking myself in the bathroom seems like a common thing. Crying also seems like a common thing now. It felt like everything just come to me like one shot and I've to be responsible for it, I've to take care of it and I've to try and solve it. Well, I'm not ready for it yet. I am used to a carefree life - a life that I don't have to care about anything. All I do is just to enjoy my life and stay out of trouble. Now, I have to worry about the things I do, the path I take and even the words I say.
Is this the time where I need to make so much mistake in life? Is this the time for me to feel what responsibility feels like? Is this the time for me to wake up from my carefree life and start taking my life seriously? It might be. I guess it should be. I don't know what should I do anymore.
Everything I do now seems so complicated.
I need time.
I need time to find myself.
To find what sweet sixteen meant to me.
I guess having depression is the best way to blog. I am re-opening my blog just for this very purpose: I AM GOING TO LET EVERYTHING OUT!
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